Arnetta

        Hey readers, I thought I'd kick off the new year with a cherished dress that I drew in loving memory of my grandfather Armando Gonzalez. I know some of you may find this blog piece a little dull and some what depressing but bare with me I promise I will make it as lively as I can,

       Arnetta was inspired to me by my grandfather because I always looked towards him as someone he wanted to be proud of. I always dreamed that he would defeat his cancer but unfortunately he didn't get to live out his days and see his grandchildren succeed but he fought really hard. Which is why I am choosing to continue this new year with this dress. It is my masterpiece to him. On his last few months he got to see the passion in my eyes as I showed him my designs in his words he asked why I didn't go to school for fashion design. I explained to him that design school would be too expensive and I had to put it off for a real career. It meant a lot to me that he was so proud of my success at school and in my passions in life. It was heartbreaking to see him go and to watch him stuggle at the end of his journey. I just know that now he is smiling with the angels because he is no longer suffering and even though we miss him very much he will always be remembered as the anchor of our family, a man of many talents, and wisdom. I named the dress Arnetta because Arnetta is the female version of my grandpa's name. I gave Arnetta a red dress because red represents love and passion. I saw many versions of my grandfather before he passed away and I got to see the loving father, husband, and grandfather he really was. Even when I had to create his funeral video I saw the love he had for each of his family members, he loved us all equally and he loved to see us talk to us and make us laugh he showed me the true meaning of love. Love isn't what you see on tv or read in the books love is the love you have for someone even when you know your about to lose them. Love is family, love is being unselfish, love is kindness towards one another even when your mad, and love is taking risks even when it costs you a lot. My grandpa had all the love that anyone could of asked for. I also choose red because it represents passion he was passionate about music, carpentry, teaching, God, farming, and cars. I never knew a person with so much passion for so many things. I believe we must all have a passion for something because it makes the world go round. If you are passionate about something do it give your all into it, and don't give up. I also gave Arnetta a ribbon because it represents cancer. Cancer is such an ugly illness and I wish we could do anything to find a cure for it, but for those people who have lost loved ones, or have loved ones with it, or are struggling with cancer, this post is dedicated to you. I hope you are strong enough to fight it and strong enough to go on with your life as much as possiable because life goes by so quickly and it's extreamly short but you must keep on going as if today was your last day. We must always be hopeful. I also gave the dress some yellow to represent happiness, I hope that through times of struggle you find happiness. I hope that where ever my grandpa is I hope he is smiling at us with happiness that he left on good grace, and that we all made him happy with the time that he spent with us and happiness for the joy he will see in our lives. I want to contiune this new year with a strong mind and heart, I want to love fiercely and live passionately.

       "Those we love don't go away, They walk beside us everyday. Unseen, unheard, but always near. Still loved, still  missed."-Anonymous. Remember readers the ones you love are always with you everyday a little piece of them is always with you. To my grandpa you will always be in my memory everyday and that will never go away. Thank you for the time we shared the memories you gave me and the wisdom you bestowed on me. I hope you get to watch me as I go on with my life and graduate, get married, and see your future grandchildren. I know you will always be with me in my heart. I love you miss you and will see you someday.

  This post is dedicated to Armando Gonzalez, and Cancer patients. may you stay strong and love strongly with all your heart.